...My Sweet Keeps Callin' Me Back

This past week has been the most interesting week of my life. I have come to realize that I have just about everything that I have ever wanted. But, it's so overwhelming; I can't enjoy it.
I have spent 15 years of my life praying for the things that I now have. Afraid to love those around me, I gradually push them away. I don't want to do that anymore. I don't want to hurt anymore people; but I can't handle getting ran over by those that I love either.
TIme to time I put up this barrier around myelf when I feel I allowing myself to be vulnerable. I'm not always the hard, tuff girl everyone seems to protray me as. Behind my mask is one of the most kind hearted and passionate people some may ever meet. Some may disagree, but that is there choice to do so. I want change.
To those who hurt me, stabbed me in my back, and were ultimately the fakest person I could ever meet..I forgive you. I dust my hands and shake my feet of you. I have to let the past be the past and allow God to help me on my path to a new life.

The Serenity Prayer

"Dear God, grant me the serenity to except the things that I can not change, the courage to change the things that I can, the wisdom to know the difference. Give me the courage to love with an open heart. Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time; Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; Taking, as He did, this sinful worldas it is, not as I would have it; Trusting that He will make all things rightif I surrender to His Will;That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with HimForever in the next. Amen."

"When I love...I love hard." ---DeliriousChild