My Reflection

Some people tend to ask me how do I fit every thing into my schedule? How do I maintain my grades? How do I keep sane? I trust, have faith, and stay poitive. My life just keeps getting better and better. And this time I am not being sarcastic. I have learned to just except somethings. You only get one life to live, so why let negative things that people have to say get in the way of your happiness? Right now, I am trying new things in my life, and people are questioning my choices as well as hating on me just because they might be jelous of me and what I am cappable of doing. New people, new ideas, new life, it's all making the new and improved me. I don't need anyone to give me their input. I am no longer worried about what you have to say about me, the way I look, the way I dress, or anything that i ultimately my decision. Like I have said many times before, I am who I am and there is nothing that I can do to change it nor will I try. I have gone through and put myself through situations that no child nor teenager should ever go through. I ask all out there, DON'T make fun of others because of how they walk, talk, act, dress, etc. That is only the outter appearance. What matters is what is on the inside. The south has handi-capped me into viewing things on one level and has allowed me to sometimes be the biggest a$$ ever. I apologize to those that I have made fun of, talked about, gloated to, or ever hurt your feelings. I have learned by traveling places throughout the U.S. that there are so many different personalities out there and that you can do your own thing! And that is exactly what I am going to do. I changed part of my style, but now...it's time for the rest of the transformation! Since June 10th of 2009 I have been growing my new growth an not getting a relaxer for my hair. By Chritmas break, my hair shoul be long enough to start dreading to about shoulder length! YES that is right. I AM GETTING DREADS!!! I don't care what you have to say about my decisions to do so and nothing you say can or will make me change my mind. I've gone this far, might as well keep going!!! He said "Come as you are". So if you won't except me or what I am doing, I know who will!!!

After The Rain...The Sun Will Shine

As of now, at this point in my life, I have come to see that there are people placed in your life to help mend your broken heart. New and old friends that help you tackle and get over obstacles.
I'm done trying to be nice, I'm done feeling like things are my fault, I'm done being ran over, I'm done giving respect and in return get treated like sh!t, I'm done worrying what everyone else has to think or say about me, I'M DONE!!! I have much greater things to worry about and focus on. I don't have time for anyone's antics. It is time for me to work on myself for the better.
No more cloudy days and stormy nights. I can see clearly what needs to be done. I am determined to do what ever I have to do to receive my blessings!!! They are coming. I can feel it. Even though at times I feel down, there is an inner peace that lets me know that everything will be alright. School is right around the corner, not looking forward to the work, but I'm ready for my transformation. And it starts with school. I have to be mentally prepared for the looks and questions that I'll be asked, especially after Christmas break, but I'm ready for what ever comes my way!!! It's All Me Baby!!! Paris Lovee!!!